Do I still love him or not?

I loved him so much when we were intimate friends. But when I decided to be his girlfriend, troubles started. My family always refused him just because he doesn't belong to the same city I live and he even doesn't speak the same dialect we do. I know that's so trivial but in reality I couldn't support either the nagging of my family nor his disappoitment that reached its peak.. I expected that he could stand by me to tell me we can never be separated but he told me instead he cannot carry on with me any more when he is always rejected by my family. We lived apart, I always tried to get him back after that I relaxed from all the troubles. I succeeded to make him closer again but I realized that he is not the lovely one any more. I suffered, I waited that he gives me even a little hint that I can understand he still loves me but in vain. he was like a selfless human with me. So I gave up looking for love and I hated even the thought of being engaged to any one. being alone was the appropriate choice for me. Now that he suggested to be my boyfriend again and he is serious in his talk.. I couldn't accept because I am still suffering from the past.. And I am still afraid I live the same conflict. I refused him and he blocked me from his life and even his friends' list in chat. do u think it would be nice if I go to talk to him or shall I forget everything and carry on my life? I am sure I love him but still wondering about this feeling of fear following me... what do u suggest plz!!